The baby aisle....sadly, this has always been my nemesis. I would purposefully take the long way around the store if it meant being as far away from the baby aisle as possible. Every time that I would have to go in there or even past there, my heart would literally ache. Have you ever felt your heart ache? It's a real thing...I'm sure of it! Baby showers, seeing pregnant woman in passing, working in the nursery, being around newborns, etc., they have gotten harder as I've grown older. I think that's because my desire of being a mother has gotten stronger. Don't worry, if you are already getting a little uncomfortable with the "infertility talk", that's not what this blog post is about. It's actually about the baby aisle and the fact that I can walk through it now. I know that this journey is going to be long (1-3+ years); but knowing that we have started is the light I need. So I'll take a short cut through the baby aisle now. I'll look at the cribs, pack-n-plays and clothes while still walking quickly through. And who knows...maybe I'll want to buy our baby something soon. Gender neutral, of course, because we don't know what we will be blessed with. Oh, and I'm still praying for twins! Until next time....
Now that the stress of the past month (Fine Arts Festivals!!!) is slowly starting to fade away, I've really been able to take a moment and think on how God has been blessing us through this process. Kent and I were really beginning to get discouraged a month ago at this time because it just didn't seem as if people were coming behind us to support us in this. Don't get me wrong...we desperately need help financially in order to make our dream of starting a family a reality but we were also desperate for people to support us emotionally and spiritually! We pray continually for God to provide the money needed for this baby and we were getting hit left and right it seemed with obstacles. We hit a deer (i should say the deer hit us!) and damaged the front end of our car....$1250 bill. We were charged for our adoption physicals which were SUPPOSED to be covered....$1500 bill. A tree branch fell and damaged our windshield....$200 bill. On top of those things we had only a few people participating in our puzzle fundraiser. So we got discouraged for a bit and we prayed to God that He would once again show us a token for good and His faithfulness. That was a few weeks ago and we've had so many unexpected blessings. About 5 people have donated for our puzzle fundraiser since then. One lady in my FL church (I won't mention her name in case she doesn't want me to) has chosen to send us a monthly gift in support which was such an encouragement!! We had an adoption yard sale fundraiser and made over $400! So, today I went to the bank and made a deposit that brought our total up to $6000. And I thank God that He is using His people to be our token for good and the encouragement that we so badly needed.
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